Through the lens of my eyes

I used to live with my parents, 3 kids, 2 adults, 2 maids, 2 hamsters, 2 dogs,  and 8 fish (now probably left 6?). Now it's just me and hubby - no maid, no kids (yet), no pet! YES!!! We are MARRIED!!! And Hello to FREEDOM again!!! I am just overjoyed that things are back to normal after we're married. It's like the spell of those stressful days and sleepless nights was broken on our wedding day!! =) =) So happy lah! I can't help but to return to our hotel room that night and do chest circles! hahahaha Oh, and girls, if you want to ask for favours, now is the time! LOL!! On our first month of marriage, I feel...... So relief! That's exactly how we felt! Putting an end to one whole year of wedding preparation is putting all the stress, all the nagging, all the extra opinions to an end (very honest hor?)! And, and, and finally ~ ~ ~ my piggy bank can recover T______T #chineseweddingissoexpensive. So loved! We feel so loved receiving lots of personal messages v...

结婚- 是所有女孩的梦想...it's a dream come true.  若非遇到心动的人，女孩是不会有那种勇气去碰'婚姻’这两个字。 因为，婚姻对女孩们而言是一生一次，所以女孩相信，只要找到对的‘他‘，就可以和‘他’白头偕老。 婚姻- 就是有那种力量，让一个女孩变成女人。 一夜之间，从小姐变女士；从一个家搬到另一家；从之前的生活到另一个生活； 如果不是真爱，女孩们怎么会愿意面对这么巨大的变化？ 所以说，男人呀！女孩愿意嫁给你，你要好好待她！ And Welcome to the club, Mrs Sia! 结婚一周，老公就得出门公干；这对于刚为人妻的谢太太，是有点不适应。 毕竟女人结了婚，是需要一些时间来适应新的生活，更需要老公在身边适应这个过渡期。 早在两个月前，老公已给我Notice，说结婚后，他就得专注在柔佛Segamat LUF24HR的开张。 LUF是老公的心血，也是我们开始相爱的地方，老公心里的紧张，责任，我都可以理解。 我还跟自己说 '嫁人了就要更体贴一些，更独立一些，做我老公需要的太太，让老公放心，不要siao ting tong！要长大一点!' 然后，很潇洒的跟老公说‘老公，你去吧！=)’ 哪知道...隔天起来...少了他在身边...就会特别想他...... =__= 原来我没那么潇洒！#thingsilearnaboutmyself (度过星期二晚，星期三晚，星期四晚... ) 今天，在送大姐去机场后，我跟老爸带着梦梦边喝咖啡边聊天。 ‘呵呵呵！谢太太，你过得怎么样呀？' ‘我还在L-plate(学)呢！而且，Kenny现在又出门公干...... 老爸，你有什么要跟我分享吗？’ ' 男人在事业上认真是好事啊！那表示他有责任感! ' (我被老爸逗笑了，我心想：几年前，Kenny拿两个大柑跟你拜年，你就把他加那么多分！LOL!!!) '那爸爸，当年你刚结婚后，是不是也这样？' '是呀！......男人结了婚，肩膀多了一份责任，想的不再是自己，而是怎样挑起这个家，把老婆照顾好,给她安稳的生活。...

Was happily shopping for my house and was interrupted by a message. It goes.... CNY??!! The only CNY I know is Chinese New Year! What currency is this?  I googled and it's China's Currency (not RMB meh??!.....) Okay loh, at least I learn something new. CNY of 8.66 is like Rm 5 or so and I thought it's from the Credit Card charges that didn't went through in China (Yalah, went shopping in China in recent trip and only know they don't accept our Credit Cards after my card fail! T_____T  看看看Credit Card 不是万能的!!!) My brain wasn't registering at all, and I thought if China can't accept my card, there's no way they can use my card in China right? ~ ~ ~ *delete thoughts and con't shopping for house deco wtf!* An hour later, I had a missed call, a message in my voicemail and a message in the box! All saying the same thing! SUSPECTED FRAUDULENT TRANSACTIONS! OMG!  How did that happen? *thinking with my eyes wide* --> NO ID...

THURSDAY 18.07.13 Got a letter from my sponsored child. Her name is Mo. I have been with World Vision's Child Sponsorship program for 2 years but I have never met Mo.  Every year, WV (Malaysia) would organize 2-3 World Vision Sponsor's Visit to places that they have reached, to show us how our sponsored money is used and on what.  In 2012 March, WV (Malaysia) visited Tua Chua, Vietname, that is where my kid is.  *sigh* At that time, I was happy being just 'a sponsor'. But after a few times of famine camp and volunteering, I really wanted to know how has my contribution changed Mo's life?  T.T It's a pity I missed it. "A child maybe born into poverty but poverty is never born to a child." Well said indeed. With Rm 65/month (Children from Asian countries) or Rm 80 (Children from non Asian Countries), that is less than RM3/day of contribution (cheaper than Kolo Mee okay!!!) and it's enough to change a kid's...

Wednesday 17.04.13 5 mins before my class and only 1 member turn up for Jam. Hoho, sign for class cancellation *sigh*. Since I've changed my class to 5.45pm I have been losing a few regulars. But today is so kelian, I've got only 1?  I jokingly said 'Well, there is a chance that it'll just be you and me today, if that is the case, we can do whatever tracks you like.' She was nice. She didn't mind being the only one and started chatting with me.  'Do you remember me?' she asked. I was like *processing processing* you mean we met somewhere before?! where leh? hahaha, didn't say it out lah! Instead I gave her a blank look. She then filled in the puzzle with 'Remember last time I saw you and Wyndie together during the volunteer training for World Vision and I told you I've attended your Jam class at LUF with the one day pass?' OOooohhh! And that rings the bell! Got to say, it's seems like my recent surprises somehow...

Thursday 04.04.13 It’s past 12 midnight and I was dead tired. I dragged myself upstairs, ready to remove the prop from my eyelids, this is when I heard the sounds of flapping wings. Oh birdy, what are you up to? As I walked closer, birdy was caught in between a piece of tattered cloth and it’s flapping its wings hard to free itself. Aiyo, birdy, I am so close to my bedroom, why won’t you let me sleep? *propping toothpick back to eyelids* So Mommy bird went to the rescue. Due to birdy’s unusual wing structure (much longer), the only way to save little birdy was to torn the cloth apart. As I was concentrating on pulling the cloth apart, very carefully, I suddenly felt as if there was something moving behind me! Wei~ don’t scare me leh! Past midnight dy!!! Sie jau Sie Lah! I looked behind and saw…… Hey~ Princey!!! What are you doing out here?  Ahhh~ ~, so I see ~ ~~, both of you trying to run away from home huh?! Naughty Naughty!!! I se...

This is the first time, I can decide on a post title in a snap of the fingers. I know it's a bit lengthy, but please read and help support Renato Cordeiro, our very own Les Mills instructor/ presenter. During the Quarterly LesMills Workshop Mid Feb this year, the shocking news of Renato's tragic motorcycle accident in Indonesia spread across the LesMills Tribe. On 24th Jan 2013, he was thrown from his motorcycle and had severe injuries on his spine. I am not a doctor but everyone  knows that our spines control movements and sensation - and he broke his! T__T Photo taken from One Tribe - One Love fb page:  Renato and Rue (both fitness instructors/ presenters) It's not that I pity him. No, he doesn't need that. But when your normal routine has changed to something you have no control of, the roads ahead are full of uncertainties dipped in strong fear. As much as you try to stay positive, there will be moments when you feel weak, when the 'What If' make...

I am tired. Sitting in front of the laptop with my coffee next to me.... I need a dose of caffeine!! >.< My grandma finally discharge after 5 days of  hospitalization. She is home since but pretty much bed ridden. She vomited just now, I was patting her back and I realized how much she has shrunk over the last week. Her health is deteriorating, she has no appetite, no energy. Her vertigo attack are getting more frequent causing her to vomit. I don't know how long can she last! :( On the 4th night accompanying her in hospital, I wrote a LONG entry about her SHOW UP....... about PAIN and ANGER........... and my DILEMMAS......................and I decided to DELETE IT. LET THE PAST STAY IN THE PAST. That is the best decision I have ever made. This song says it all:  原谅 (Forgiveness) 很抱歉现在才察觉                        原来爱并不代表了解 我对你的责备和埋怨  ...

Moving my toes and fingers, slowly, I opened my eyes. It's time to wake up, Ming! 3 hours of sleep, a deep one, that should be able to keep my alertness up for Day 3 of camping in the ward. I have heard stories about my previous workplace...stories like how the TV in the empty ward suddenly turned on....patient/family members committed suicide and jump off the floor o,O"...It's hospital! People either recover and go home or they 'expired' from earth and go to heaven. Till now, I find the term 'expire' sarcastic. See  Choose to Live it fully  entry. It has been 2 restless nights, waking up every 1 -2 hours to comfort my old granny. She has been hallucinating a lot. Waking up and telling me there are lots of ants in the room and she wants to remove them. Then she tries to get off the bed! That happened during Day 1 when I was still settling into a new environment. Luckily she said 'ants' and not some scary 'thing' that might appeared from ...

In the Hospital ward right now, accompanying my grandma for the night; hopefully she will be going home tomorrow. We know she wants to go home. Relatives are in and out of the room and with a big family like mine; it has been a busy day for her just talking to them. She is totally exhausted, sleeping peacefully like a baby in front of me. I watched her, thinking back of the drama that happened this morning. The sun began to rise when I received a called from my ex-colleague, she is an ICU nurse and such a coincident that she was taking care of Grandma for the past two days since she was admitted. My ex-colleague was calling for help, my old granny was cursing and scolding them, thinking that they were bad people trying to poison her! And her systolic blood pressure shoot up to 230 +. but her so called ‘poison’ is actually her blood pressure medication. So dramatic right?? She maybe old, but she is very cautious with what she puts through her mouth. When it comes t...

During my last day in Sapa, I saw a little boy about the age of 6 carrying a younger child behind his back. It was late at night, but he was still trying to earn some money... It makes me wonder.... How would my life be... if I was born there...?? .... .... ........ At this age,  I'd probably... a mom of 10 !! o.O" Wahh ~!! How to survive O?? but seriously, among all the Hmong girls that I have came across, I couldn't tell who were the mothers and who were the daughters... they seem to have very little age gap. As I explore more about Sapa, I realised that on top of 'adventure'... Poverty comes into the picture too... :( Seeing kids running around the village...  spreading their laughter seems to be nice... ...at first then you ask yourself...  'Hey..wait a minute..Shouldn't they be in school at this time???' and when you look closer... You'll find that they were wearing the same slippers.... their clothes were old and dirty and prob...